Have You Ever Been Down?

Have you ever been down?
A little pick me up?
Just a sniff and a pop.
Ahhhhh yes
Hit hit hit me hard.
Baby if I could keep you inside me forever
You know I would
You know I would.
I love the way you course through my veins
Heart beats faster,
Dilate dilate
You know I would keep you inside me forever.
It all seems so strange, so far away.
A fogginess that I can’t lift.
A moment that seems to drift.
It all seems so perfect through these eyes,
If only I could make them mine.
Forever forever.
Hit hit me
You know I would keep you inside me forever .
Hit me hard.

Spirals

For every strive upward
Theres a downward spiral
When I follow my heart
I ignore my head
A soul incomplete
And a mind empty
Voided of everything
If I hold dear
It disappears
So I got used to letting go
I’m far from home
And happy that way
A place to call my own
A place to stay
It doesn’t matter
When your thoughts have far gone
And drifted away
Every memory floating out there somewhere in the distance I thought I could spread my story
If I let every idea be a seed and glide upwards to the mountains, rain down in the valleys.
I never really shouted but I silently screamed. Left every impression I could, even when all it meant was a “---was here.” Scratched the name and the date, the time and the place, the hope and the filth
Combined, made me, break me, taste me, take me. I’m all yours, always was, always will be. Torture

Ever

Picture a room.
Paint the walls black
Take the ceiling off
So you can let the darkness in.
Board up the windows
But unlock the door
In case the moon decides to come down from the sky
In case you decide not to feel so alone
In case there might be someone.
Lay down a carpet
Make it a plush one
So when you’re lying on the floor
Crying your heart out
Your inner pain will be the only pain
The only pain you feel.
If you can call it feeling
If you can really call it anything, besides pathetic.
You’ve drained the bottle
It’s lying empty by your side
You still feel the numbness
Guess you tried to buy happiness one too many times.
Picture a room
With the walls painted black
The celing gone and the door unlocked
One last piece of hope.

Love

ADDICTED
ADDICT
Add
Drugs
Subtract Control
Lose Control
A.D.D.
ADDIcTED
To…
Happiness

Am

AM-
I am dilated pupils

Pin points, filtering out light.

Luminance’s, effervescence,

I am the smeared tear drop

Your finger crushed

As it flattened me against skin.

I am the skipped heartbeat

Static, breath, breathe.

I am your shallow thoughts

Keep thinking, remain calm.

Parted lips kissed parted lips,

Brushing softly against hairline fractures

Delicate like flower petals.

The wind blew me away

And I was blown away for good.

Across the tips of grass blades,

Across the wings of buzzing bumblebees,

Across the craters found in pebbles,

And the smoothness found on seeds.

I am ebbing I am flowing

I am a mountain

Just breathe.

I am the sea

I am the smell of fall

Catch your balance, please.

I am the smooth rings in trees

Reveal your age,

Secrets keep…